Decision Time

I had it all planned out.
I was going to start taking a writing course thru Christian Writer's Guild this summer. And I was going to spend my summer w/ my kids the way I always do....taking nice long walks in the morning, hitting the pool everyday, and just enjoying our time together without school or any other time commitments. Then in the fall, I was going to continue my writing course while providing my 4th year of childcare for little Emma...which is a flexible job w/ gr8 pay. The girls will begin preschool this fall, so I was looking forward to having a few mornings each week ALONE...free to workout, get coffee with a friend, or just work on my writing assignments. I feel so strongly that God's plan for my life includes writing. Getting His message out thru the written word. That's so exciting!!!

BUUUUUUTTTTTT......this week I was verbally offered a different job. It's a job I've wanted for a long time. A very exciting opportunity. But at what cost??? I would have to sacrifice some of my time w/ my kids. And many details in our daily life would have to change. Could I manage this new job, have quality time w/ my kids, AND continue w/ the writing course?? I'm tired just thinking about it! lol. But selfishly, I want it all! (blush) So....what do I do???

I feel like I have 2 doors standing in front of me. Both are enticing and both have reward behind them. But they both cost a measure of sacrifice as well. Which do I take??? I'm at a total loss!

Thankfully, I have a husband behind me who supports me through every decision. We plan to sit down and discuss the options. I pray that as the leader of the home, he will have wisdom to point things out that I just don't see. (He is so good at that!!!)

I'm also comforted by a single thought: In the midst of a storm, or confusion, or uncertainty, God calls us to hide in the shelter of his wing. He is a Rock, and we can find safety within his cleft. I recently heard a speaker mention that in times of darkness, when you just can't see the answer or the way to go, it's then that we hide in the cleft. He covers the opening with His hand, and we are safe inside. Yes, it's dark in there, but we can rest assured that He has never been closer than times like that! And later on, when we look back, we can see just how close He really was. Thank you, Lord, for your safety and security. Please give us wisdom. And give me strength to make the right choice. And to have peace about that decision. Amen!

Psalm 18:2 "The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."

Psalm 63:7 "Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings."